As you can tell from my infrequent entries this past month, September and the first days of October have presented me with huge challenges in terms of finding time to write and reflect.
So why the slowdown?
I’m struggling to find a way of taking back some degree of control over my schedule.
During my sabbatical this summer, I had complete control over my schedule. I could get up, read the three newspapers I read each day, read a couple of meditations, read an extended passage from the Bible, reflect on the material, and process things. Since I returned from my sabbatical, I no longer have such blocks of time. My days start with an early walk of my dog and 6:30 AM don’t slow down until evening: at which point I’m too tired to process clearly. Last week, I even fell back into my pre-sabbatical bad behavior and missed my days off all together!
As I was sitting with the challenge of working a couple of weeks straight, I stumbled upon a passage from Melodie Beattie’s book The Language of Letting Go. In it, Beattie wrote, “Part of recovery [from codependence] means learning to pay attention to, and place importance on, what we feel, want, and need, because we begin to see that there are clear, predictable, and usually undesirable consequences when we don’t.”
The sentence challenged me to ask myself, “What do I need?”
The answer was pretty simple. I need some time for myself, and I need time to engage in those things that feed my soul.
I’m working to take a few tangible steps to address those needs: one of which is to set aside a little time during my office hours to write. That small change will make a huge difference in my quality of life.
Today, I would invite you to ask yourself the same question: “What do I need?” Don’t stop there, however. Once you’ve identified a need, take a tangible step that can help you meet that need. I would love to hear from some of you to see how this process works for you.
See you next time!